Life can never be simple…

I know I haven’t been posting a lot since the Prop 8 decision. There are a variety of reasons for that. First, I was holding back for the actual decision to come out so I could read it; second, I’ll admit I was hurt by the vehemence of the reaction even though I thought I was prepared for it; third, as I said in my last post I am having a lot of difficulty verbalizing what I am thinking at the moment; now another log in the fire, with the judges decision on the stay yesterday Mr. X asked me to marry him.

I told him not yet – His reasoning for asking now was that he thinks that the judges ruling on the stay means he is confident that his ruling on Prop. 8 will stand on appeal. I think it indicates just the opposite that the judge is not confident so he is try to force the 9th circuit and the Supreme Court into a corner by increasing the size of the pool of people who will be affected. I don’t want to get married and then have that yanked out from under my feet. Mr. X was a little upset, but this morning he said he understood my position.